Friday, February 23, 2007

War on Bullshit....

Its been a while since I posted any type of political comments, but I personally have to reiterate how sick of George W I really am.

War in Iraq...

War against drugs....

War against terror....

All things we have heard, and have becoming common language in the last few years....but seriously, even though the last two are good, why does everything have to be the "WAR"....Whats Dubya's deal anyway??

I WISH i could vote this coming election....I'm so sick of republicans.

Monday, February 19, 2007

Brats...all of them.

I've been staring at this blank screen for the past couple of days, trying to think of something worth saying...something like I used to say...something that made people check my comment section before they checked their own email.

Do I mention the growing infatuation that is developing between someone, and someone else who is married....Not today...but one day.

Do I mention that I hooked up with a guy from my past who is BAD news.....mmm...getting better, but not yet. Beucase we might never seen one another again. Its too soon to bitch about it.

....and its funny, but the only thing that I can even think of bitching the kids at school

I fucking hate them...infact, its gotten so bad that I feel personal vengeful feelings towards them. I've tried being nice.....really. Shocking, I know.

I've tried being lenient....ive even tried being accomodating. I've been tough..but fair....until today.

I had my first evaluation on of my profs from teachers college comes in to watch me in action. I did tell the kids about him before he got there, just to avoid all of the "who's he" questionning.

My children, were angels Friday morning. They worked hard, and quietly. There were 22 of them in class on Friday....As soon as recess was over, all hell broke loose.

The kids were up and down out of their seats...walking around, talking and laughing with their friends across the rooms. There was coloring, while I was doing the lesson, there was reading of novels...there was Nintendo DS games being played....It was a nightmare.

I walked my prof out to the parking lot, and when I got back down to my room, I closed the door, and FREAKED out on them.

Today....i pulled all 11 students into the hallway, who decided to act up during my evaluation. I promised them, that if they EVER acted like that around me again, the consequence would be severe...and it would be HORRIBLE. Thing is, I was smiling when I said it.....4 of them cried.

I had 4 students in for detention during phys ed. I spoke to all fo them earlier in the day. Obviosuly nothing I said registered with them. I said that I was sick *I ALMOST swore at them...almost...*I was sick of their behavior, and starting TODAY, in school suspensions will take place. *thats when you call their parents, and have them go home, and they are suspended for the day only*...I said I wasnt joking anymore.....

I was ridiculously serious....and must have looked so. 2 of them cried.

Put the fear of god into my students today....Check.
Give out 4 detentions today...Check.
Make 6 students cry today....Check.

Saturday, February 10, 2007

A night of nights

Have you ever had one of those "a-ha" moments...And NO...not the band, or the crazy video drawn in comics...*for those of you who would comment on the band instead of the point..there are a few of you I can think of off the top of my head*

But a moment, when everything becomes so clear, and you know what you what you want to do, or how you want to change your life in the next little while?

I had one of those last night. I was at the bar, having a great time, just hanging out with my friend Karolina....and it hit me. I want something different, something better for myself....and it had nothing to do with the company I was in, or the place I was in....but something inside.

An renewed sense of self improvement so to speak....something that lays dormant inside of you, until you go somewhere, or see something that reawakens a drive inside of you, long since forgotten.

Its funny how feelings like that get pushed aside so easily....becuase with a renewed sense of improvement, comes a rejuvinated sense of empowerment, and confidence to get things done, and change what you want to change.

I forgot how good that feels.

Thursday, February 08, 2007

...all work and no really a lot of work...

After a rough weekend of suicides, and working 17 hour shifts...a week of teaching, and workshops, marking, and planning...i'm finally taking a night off. Of course, after all my work is finished.

I have been SO busy, that I havent had a chance to see anyone, or do anything since the end of January. Grantid, its only been about 2 weeks since ive seen anyone, but it feels like 6 eternitys.

Ive got someone coming over tomorrow night, and we're going to go over my lesson plans, and then head out for a night out at Dragonfly....go out for a bite to eat, and just hang out....relaxing..and drinking of course. I work the rest of the weekend, so a night to recharge myself is going to be exactly what I need.

On the other hand, I have started planning my trip to B.C. this coming March. My friend asked me if I wanted to go to Seattle, and since I have never been, but love Starbucks, I figure i'd go see where it all began.

I know Yrautca is from Seattle....Whats there to do there...Do tell.

Saturday, February 03, 2007

Ugly news at night....

Its Midnight almost......

I was just woken up about an hour ago by a phone call saying that one of my friends commit suicide. I used to work with this person in Massachusetts, and still saw him when he came through this way. I hadnt seen him in about 4 months, but talked to him almost 4 times a week on messenger, or email.

The kicker? This was an older man that I worked with, maybe about my parents age...not older, but older than me. I knew, and worked with him and his wife, for a while, and kept in constant contact with them.....When Donnie commit suicide earlier this week, his son was so broken hearted, that he jumped out of the top window in his house, and commit suicide as well. I didnt know his son, but I cant even imagine what Lynn *wife and mom* is going through right now.....

I have indeed written about him before.