Wednesday, December 27, 2006

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You ever notice that someone's missing?

People come and go from our lives all the time....but do you ever notice, when one of those people, that special amazing one, isnt there anymore?

I had someone in my life, for a long time. We havent spoken in a bit, but I always knew where I could reach him.

Today, while watching Fight Club, I felt an unbelievable urge to call him....its been a while. But I called...and his number was disconnected...so I was going to leave a message on his pager, but that was disconnected too.

It was an overwhelming sense of sadness....Ive noticed his absense lately, and i missed him today terribly. I just wanna know what he's been up to...and that he's okay.

**UPDATE: I happened to find myself on messenger tonight, and a mutual friend of ours signed in, someone who I also havent spoken to in a while *coincidence??*....anyway, he messages me, and asks how im doing blah blah blah....

I have to ask....hows guy 1 doing...i havent been able to stop thinking about him for weeks...

guy 2 says hes okay....

I ask if guy 1's grandmother is still alive...guy 2 says "i dont think so..." (this explains why the number was disconnected...and confirms my worst assumption. After i found out his number was disconnected, it was the first thought that crossed my mind: The overwhelming sense of sadness I felt earlier)

Guy 1 is now living in a hotel somewhere with some friend of his, and is struggling. This breaks my heart, and I get very sad and teary. I went from wondering how he was doing, to wishing that I never asked...i was better not knowing

Guy 2 promises that if he sees Guy 1, that he will tell him that I want to talk to him, and that I miss him....guy 1 is so stubborn...im not holding my breath. But i'm hoping for a miracle.

Maybe my new years resolution should be to care less about everyone.

14 comments:

yrautca said...

I thought I gave you my new number, no?

Anyway, I am fine honey, love you too, and lets have another one of those weekend-long sex sessions soon.

Sexy Suburbanite said...

Oh, that is sad, isn't it? Being home in Michigan these past few days made me think of just this very type of thing. Memories...

Natalia said...

That is indeed sad. But I don't think you'd really wish to care less. And even if you wished for it, it wouldn't happen. Cause that's just who you are. I hope you two get in touch and I hope he pulls through the hard times.

-N

Miss Ash said...

LMAO @ Yrautca....

Why don't you just call the radio station? Try to be caller # 9

Lindsey said...

Ahhhhh. See, now YOU are the one having to worry...

I still haven't heard anything from Eric. I know one of the camps was under direct attack...I don't k now if it was his though...

this sucks.

Princess Pessimism said...

Y - You're ridiculous....

Sexy - Ya....its hard when thats all you have though...i cant get in touch with this guy.

N - I would wish to care less....before I met him, I hardly gave a shit about any guy. He was the one that flipped me.

Ash - The radio station??? radio station...what does that have to...OHHHH LOL..no. Different guy.

Lin - I got your email...i emailed you back. That is sad, but im sure hes fine....like i said, its a tragic life being involved with someone like Eric. From one day to the next, you'll never know. Id be sick to death with emotion.

yrautca said...

LMAO @ Ash, yeah be caller #9.

Amichai said...

I am the worst at correspondences. I have so many freinds whom I don't speak to for months, even years at a time. I should call, and i usually intend too, but life just gets in the way (life in this case = laziness).

Phil said...

Maybe your New Years resolution should be to keep in touch more regularly with people important to you. I mean, really, we visit your blog faithfully and you just sit home ignoring us, hoping to care less. Is that the thanks we get?!!? Maybe we should all resolve to care about you less! How would you like that? How would that feel little princess? (please read with a biting sarcastic tone factored in) Well Happy Effing New Years to you!

Trib said...

That is sad, but at least you're taking steps to get back in contact.

Princess Pessimism said...

Y - How is that even remotely funny to you? You're an odd individual

Amichai - Im so good at keeping in good contact with everyone, this ones a little different though.

Philly - What are you talking about?? You email me ALL the time. You're the last person that should be bitching!!

Trib - Ive been trying, but if he doesnt want to be found thats another story.

yrautca said...

happy new year.

Hernesto G said...

Happy New Year!
did you see Sadam get executed?

berly02 said...

You can't care less. Your heart is to big :)
Happy New Year!