Sunday, October 24, 2010

and of course I spoke to quickly....

Story of my life.

Another ex emailed me today...but not just any Ex...THE ex. The one who devastated me, broke my heart, and left me....

I never check my junk mail in hotmail - but for some reason...did. Saw his name and freaked out. Cried...and called a couple of people. 2 people pointed out that if an email can have that much affect on me....what would talking to him do. I agreed.

And then he texted me "Is this still your number"....(THE CURSE of having the same number for 10 years. FYI everyone who has my cell number. its being changed)

Its morbid curiosity....I HAVE to talk to him. I HAVE to know what he wants....its not like he was someone i just hooked up with at a bar. I Loved this guy...immensely. We talked about a future.....

Im just so confused....I looked him up on FB. So hot still.....I answered his text....im insane - lets not dwell on that please. But I have to know what he wants....I dont even know why.

A friend called me to see how i was...i couldnt string a thought together, or a sentence for that matter in regards to the issue...its utterly mind boggling.

I havent talked to him in a year and a half - and at this point, its such a mind fuck, that I cant even fathom why he wants to catch up. He clearly had no idea what imact his email would have.....and i wish, at this point, that I would have just let my junk mail go....

7 comments:

yrautca said...

Dude, whats up with all the guy threads. Surely there is more to life than boys, no? You should get a dog. Or a girl.

Princess Pessimism said...

I DONT KNOW!!! They just all seem to be coming out of the woodworks...its starting to bother me too....There is WAY more to life than guys, i Just cant believe how many exes have called me lately...Its mind boggling. and this one...this one takes the cake.

Christielli said...

Oh goodness... I know how you feel. I've had a no-good-for-me guy contact me and want to meet up, and every brain cell in my body tells me not to, as well as my friends, but I still did because of some lingering addiction. (That's what I think of it as.)

Anyway, my question is, what's going on with the nice guy that you just met? Is he still in the picture? Perhaps you should leave the ex situation alone and focus on him?

Hope all turns out well for you.

Miss Ash said...

Hmmm read your first sentence, "devestated me, broke my heart and left me" ummm ya that sounds like a real catch, I can totally see why you'd want to talk to such a person again.....*sarcasm*

Why bother answering anymore emails, he's a douche....?

yrautca said...

Sorry I was out of line. Its your blog and your space to write what you want. And really exes can impact us in a negative manner in a big way. Hope its better.

wigsf3 said...

don't call him back, no good can come from it

it must have ended for a reason, right?

Anonymous said...

lol Miss Ash - good call, chica

AND

nice blog revamp :D

It's all.. green n stuff, hardly emo @ all..?

peace n rainbows