Saturday, October 15, 2005

Oh god...someone SHOOT Me.


I cant study anymore....i'm going crazy.

I was up yesterday at 6am, getting ready for my 8:30 class.....when I got home, I took a short lunch break and then hit the books....stopped to make dinner, and took a little break around 8 to listen to some music....then I got back to it. My phone rang at 2:00am. I was still studying, but had NO clue what time it was, and when he told me what time it was, I just about died. I laughed and said that I had been up almost 24 hours, which atleast 12 of those were spent doing some sort of work.

And then exhaustion hit....I was SO tired, that I could barely crawl to my bed.

Today I work....LOL....NOT WORK...WOKE...fuck i'm studying too hard. I WOKE up at 9:30, and hit the books at 12. I was SO antsy by 5, that I had to go out for a long walk. I took a three hour break, and its now 48 minutes after I started studying again, and i'm about to go insane.....I dont mind doing the readings and all, but it's just the sitting there, reading it over part, that kills me. I cant learn like that, but the one midterm that i'm studying for, I have 60 pages of notes. LIKE i'm going to write them all over again....

I decide to get my study guides and check what i've learned so far by doing the practise questions. Of the first chapter for my sociology practise, I got 3 right, out of 15. LOL...I ALMOST cried. Almost.....how is it that you spend SO much time doing something, and then not know ANY of it??? But I did the remaining 3 chapters, and did subsequently better...but still...i'm only about 40% ready, and it's on wednesday....plus my one on friday that i'm only 30% ready for.....

I WANT to get my masters, and in order to do so, I have to get all really good grades.....but packing it up, and taking next semesters tuition money, and going to europe and never coming back sounds REALLY good right about now.

26 comments:

yrautca said...

Sorry dear. I am studying too so dont feel too bad. Not in school. I am studying for my CFA level 1 exam. Its in December. I just sit in the Starbucks even on weekends. Everybody else is having a party. Maybe we need to study together?

jellofishy said...

that's a lot of papers.
Be careful, the conservationalists might raid you.

Hope everything goes well.

Lindsey said...

You poor thing. It'll be over soon...I promise. Get your Masters while you're there and then you can take a whole Summer in Europe. Make sure you call me when you go.

Natalia said...

Can I come with you? My dissertation is really getting on my nerves right now.

-N

Drywall Mom said...

I hope you do well on your test. Especially if you studied that much

Princess Pessimism said...

Of Course...Everyone's invited
Lets all go to Europe! And celebrate not having to study.

Anonymous said...

Hang in there girl. Your gonna make fabulous grades and Europe will be that much better :)

berly02 said...

Ummm . . . that was me. I forgot to sign in. Don't I feel stupid.

Princess Pessimism said...

Sometimes, I'm happy that my blog still allows anonymous comments. Thanks Anonymous....that made me smile

Princess Pessimism said...

Ugh...berly. LOL....you're too funny. But my "Thank you anonymous" still applies even though you have a name now!

Sexy Suburbanite said...

Hang in there! I've been there before and it is so worth it when it's all over. What are you getting your Masters in?

Princess Pessimism said...

S.Subs...Masters.....Its still seems so far away. LOL...but its going to be in social work, with an undergrad in sociology and criminology

Px said...

come and see me, help me escape this mundane life
you know you want to
but if not
chill and pick up a different book, do have an hour of work and half an hour of something else, like a novel, i could recommend a few

FU said...

it's sad really... i miss school now that i'm a working stiff.

i'd go back in a second...

the grass is always greener..blah blah blah..

fu :)

Princess Pessimism said...

Oh PX...I wish it was that easy. I have three midterms in the next 7 days. Wednesday friday and monday. and then I have one the following monday....I dont get to relax until november 1st....and then, it's time to plan the birthday fiesta!!! woohoo

Princess Pessimism said...

FU...I'd rather be a working stiff. Its weekends like the one I just had, that make me wonder why I quit my job to come back to school and torture myself

Jennifer said...

Well you could always do both like me - worst of both worlds!

Hernesto G said...

Hey, so I got drunk this weekend, like really drunk... didn't have to study... then went to a hockey game, got drunk again... then, security guards came... long story... so, studying is important.

anyways, it says USC Medical on your mug??? Have you ever been to L.A.???

Princess Pessimism said...

Jenny - I'd be a moron to go to school full time and work. I'm going crazy now, and i only have school. HOWEVER, i'm feeling much better. I went to see my TA as I had some general questions about the material, and she said "dont stress, because you're doing much better than the guy who came in here last week and said that he hadnt been to class, had no notes and hadnt started reading the textbook yet! LOL....she told me that even if I dotn do as well as I hope at least i'll do better than that guy.

Hernesto - I also know someone that went to a hockey game this weekend, and there was some beligerant guy there who was escorted out by the security. You werent in toronto by any chance were you?

That's not my desk, or my coffee cup. Although my desk is starting to look like that.

Px said...

make time for me

Princess Pessimism said...

PX - My my, arent we bossy and demanding.

Hernesto G said...

oh, no no no PP, no no no no Toronto... they don't know how to play hockey there... I went beligerent where it really mattered!!!

Hernesto G said...

yo what do u study?

Princess Pessimism said...

YO??? LOL....must be the californian schooling system in its finest form.

I'm for mostly sociology courses, but have one anthropology class as well.

Hernesto G said...

what do you mean, California... how did you know? I try to be incognito :)...

Where are you going to work with such majors?

Borat, "In America there is two job for man:, construction worker, garbage man. For woman, only one: prostitute."

Princess Pessimism said...

Herenesto - arent you from the san fernando valley???