Randomness

Well...im 30.

It was my birthday just on the 5th, and i had a lovely time celebrating with all of my incredible friends. And one of my good friends birthday's is the day before mine, so there's always extra celebrating to be done as we usually do both birthdays together.

I had 6 days of fun filled birthday enjoyment, but to be perfectly honest, im done with my birthday. Im happy to be 30, as my 20s brought me LOADS of incredible opportunity and education. Im hoping my 30s will be the utilization and implementation of all of my experiences and education put together. I think 30 is going to be a GREAT year!!

Besides, its not even like im 30's...im not even 30 something. i'm 30 nothing. 30. Thats it. 30 nothing.

And sicne everyone was so generous with me, allow me to return the favor. I was emailed this website recently, and I dont know what type of person you are....but this is a website of all of the movies currently out at the theater, or recently at the theater to watch for free online.

You can also browse through old movies, and a variety of tv shows...again all for free, with nothing to download.

If you have not seen, or heard of the show Dexter (SHAME ON YOU if you have not)...please start watching from season 1. You wont be sorry.

Happy watching!

http://www.free-tv-video-online.info/

Funny haha (Round 2.)

Okay...lets try this one instead.

A man living in Newfoundland went to the docks to try to get a job.

He found the captain of a boat, and said "I need a job". The captain looked him over, and said "Okay. Take this application home, fill it out, bring it back, and i'll give you a job."

The captain hands over a 15 page application. The newfoundlander takes it home, and fills it out making sure all t's are crossed and all i's are dotted. Three days it takes him to fill out the application..but he does it and brings it back.

The captain says "Great!! We have a boat leaving tomorrow so go home and get some rest. Be here at 4am." Just before the Newfoundlander can say "OK", another man comes up and says "I just moved here from BC, and I need a job desperately."

The captain looks him over, and immediately says "Okay. Be here at 4am"

Obviously annoyed, the Newfoundlander says "I had to fill out this stupid 15 page application that took me THREE days, and this guy walks up and you immediately give him a job??"

The captain says "He's got an honest face. So either be here at 4am, or not. The choice is up to you". The Newfoundlander sulks but agrees to be there.

The next day. The Newfoundlander and the man from BC are both on the boat, the Newfoundlander up in the crow's nest, and the man from BC mopping the deck. The waves are gigantic as they have come upon a storm. As the Newfoundlander watches the man from BC, a humongous wave comes aboard and washes the man from BC over the side of the boat, into the ocean and is nowhere to be seen.

The Newfoundlander cant believe what he has just seen and as quickly as he can climbs down and runs to the captain.

Upon finding him, the Newfoundlander says:

N: You know that guy you hired?? The one from BC with the honest face?
C: Yes. What about him?
N: He just stole your fucking mop!!!

Funny haha...

In this post, I had a picture that was emailed to me.

It will not appear on this page anymore....i dont know why, so im going to recreate it. For you...

ORIGINAL COMPUTER!!!!
..........Print.................................................Delete......

I thought it was funny....but this doesnt make me laugh....well it sorta does, but not out loud. AND it wont let me post the words where they're supposed to be, without the dots....VERY disappointing

Filling the void.

I was instructed by someone to start posting more often. So, in honor of his request, I will post the following information on my currently uber exciting life.

Lets see....

This month alone, Ive worked 1, 2, 5, 6, 7, 8, 10, 11, 13, 14, 15, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24. And im working 28, 29, 30. (OH I took the 29th off, wedding). I was sick 2 weeks ago, and now im sick again....

That pretty much sums it up.

Hope it was as exciting for you to read, as its been for me to post. Feel free to comment!!!

The Midnight Disaster

I worked 2 overnights at the shelter this week....

I havent worked an overnight since living in Massachusetts at the residential facility.

I forgot how boring they are.

However, women in crisis, are usually a lot more enjoyable, and make the time go faster than a bunch of conduct kids who are sleeping...EXCEPT when those kids were escaping, or trying to kill each other....those nights were fun.

We have a bunch of women right now that are exceptionally high needs. Ugh. When I say high needs...think of the highest needs, most demanding person you know, and multiply that by 10, and then times that number by 9, because thats how many women are in shelter right now....

Ambulance...Regional police....incident reports...serious occurrence forms.....crisis lines.......medication...medication....medication.....All by myself, with only the crisis lines to keep me company.

Usually we are double staffed but on midnights, you're all by yourself. Im just bitching, but im glad they're over, and I cant see myself working another for in a long time.

Life getting back to normal...for now anyway

Well, since the last time I posted (I feel like every post starts off that way...) was so long ago, I'll update.

I finished school...YAY!!!

First undergrad..........check
Second Undergrad....check
Masters..................check
PhD in social work.....in the works.

If things go the way I want them to in the next couple of weeks, I will be making a H U G E move....but i'll post about that as time progresses. And NO Yrautca, that doesnt mean Chicago. LOL!

I went to see Halloween tonight...Im a fan of Rob Zombie, Devil's Rejects is in my top 10 of all time for certain...However, As well im a fan of Halloween...

Reader Beware: If you are a fan of the original Halloween, this movie might not be for you, as it was "not" for me....If you are a fan of Rob Zombie, this movie is EXACTLY for you...as it was for me.

Rob Zombie film = 3 out of 5 stars...
Halloween film = 1 out of 5 stars....

...breathing....

Without realizing where the time has gone....working incessantly on my thesis, spending many sleepless nights trying to get each chapter done...spending countless hours in the library, pouring over journal article after journal article...trying to get all of the paraphrasing right, and finding just the right words to have a really strong concluding statement....dealing with my adviser...unreturned emails...and phone calls....calling so many times that Ive memorized her office phone number....long conversations, and the feelings of being inconvenienced, im sure on both parts.....and the stress....OH MY GOD...the stress, of an 18.000 word assignment (plus 60 slide power point presentation) hanging over your head, being so close to finished, and then having a million and a half revisions...the wrong format on the table of contents...realizing that, not only do office stores/binding companies in st. catharines, niagara, and surrounding area not DO Velo Binding...they dont even know what it is....driving to buffalo...fighting traffic in a car with no AC, on a day where it is 95 degrees outside....

....its gone......Submitted Thursday....2 weeks in advance....IM FREE!!

All of this, seems like a distant memory...

Harry Potter 5

After a lot of emailing, online ticket buying not working, panicking over sold out theaters, we finally got tickets for Harry Potter at the midnight showing.

We got to the theater 45 minutes before it started and almost couldnt find two seats together. The movie was supposed to start at midnight, but the reel broke. And after 30 minutes of people booing and hissing, and 300 people doing the wave, the movie finally started at 12:30....and did Not disappoint from the first minute to the last minute.

If you are a fan of Harry Potter, which I am, you should have already seen it.

I just saw Daniel Radcliffe on Larry King live, and I guess the stats have come out from the midnight show. At that one showing, HP5 made 12 million dollars. FROM ONE SHOW!!! Insane. but it was so worth it. I guess its on its way to breaking box office records, if it hasnt done so already.

Anyway, without giving away the movie.....for those of you who havent read the book, it was incredible. INCREDIBLE!!!! And for those of you who have read the book, what they did, was awesome. Although, the didnt include the St. Mungos bit of the book, where they go visit Mr. Weasley....I was kind of disappointed about that....I was looking forward to seeing Gilderoy again. LOL!!!

Sicko!!!

So I know someone who knows someone who knows someone...and I saw the new Michael Moore movie Sicko. It doesnt come to theater until next friday.

If you are an American, or international other looking to move to America, please see this movie. It was a real eye opener and has honestly made me retihink moving to the states in september.

It doesnt matter if you loath Michael Moore, or Love him to peices. This movie is so important.

**Sicko is about the American Health Care System

Caution: Spoiler ahead....

Best line of the movie?

Michael takes three 9/11 rescue workers to Guantanamo Bay, the only U.S. soil that offers free health care.....to prisoners, real threats to national security.

Michael Moore is in a boat of the coast of the prison, and through a mega phone screams "theses 9/11 rescue workers want health care, because they cant afford it. Please can we have free care. Like the free care you're giving to Al Qaeda"

I cried laughing....

Best Part of the Movie?

One of those narrow minded assholes runs an "I hate Michael Moore webiste". This guy was going to have to shut down his website, becuase of his sick wife and medical bills. He could no longer afford to keep the webiste up.....

Michael Moore sent him a check for 12.000 dollars to cover the costs of his wife's medical bills, ANONYMOUSLY. The guy has no idea...until the movie comes out next week. LOL!!!!

So I posted a month ago...

A little bit about where ive been the last month

- I finished my placement. And not a moment too soon, I was ready to slit my wrists.

- I got my fingerprinting for NY certification. The guy who took my finger prints told me that my prints were so rare, and that of the millions of fingerprints hes seen, I might be the only person in all of canada with my finger print pattern. THEN he told me there may only be 2 other people in all of north america that share my finger prints...Then he asked if he could photocopy my prints and show the guys downstairs.

- There was a snake in my basement...I freaked out, called my parents and made them come home to get it out of here. If I left the basement, and took my eyes off it, it would have slithered away and been lost forever.

- I started my last semester of my Masters. Talk about tough. OMG, I have NEVER had so much work to do...and not only do I have 5 full classes, CHOCK full of assignments, I have to write a 100-200 page thesis in the next 8 weeks. because they didnt think that it would be a good idea to give us more time.

- I cut almost 6 inches off my hair, and changed the color. If you dont know how long my hair was before, or what color it was, it wont matter...but for those of you who complained about the length of my hair and how much i needed cut off, you will be plesantly surprised. Although it is still almost half way down my back.

- Miss Ash told me to write a new post. This is whats gone on in the past month. Working every weekend, going to school, going to night school, doing homework, and writing my thesis. Doesnt leave much time for anything else.

Things that go bump in the night

Im a believer in ghosts. I'll admit it....i dont care. When you live where I've been living for the past few months, its hard not to be.

So im at my brother in laws house 2 weeks ago for Sopranos...we're sitting there, and the door alarm goes off (the one that beeps when the door opens), we look up towards the front door...closed. We look at eachother. He goes upstairs to check the side door...WIDE open. No one to open it. Rattled.

A day or so later, im in bed, I wake up breifly, look at the clock, it's 1:30ish. I hear a loud crash downstairs. I bolt out of bed, and immediately think there's someone in the house. I get out of bed, turn the light on, go into the hallway and turn every light on out there, and then call for my mom. I KNOW...i'm 29. Shut up. She comes out, and I say "you didnt HEAR that??" She says no, I tell her it sounds like someone is downstairs. We listen, intently, for 5 minutes. I finally say "Wanna go check?" She shakes her head "No"

After a couple of more minutes, we go, clicking every light in the house on. Nothing. Basement, closets, doors...nothing. Nothing is broken and nothing has fallen over. She thinks im crazy. We go upstairs, and as im turning out all the lights, she comes out of her room, and says "It was the deckchairs, they fell over, because of the wind."

Her room is right over the deck. Mine, on the other end of the house. Funny how I heard it, and she didnt. I still closed my door, and put my chair, and laundry basket behind it just in case.

In the morning, she says "I was vaccuuming, and I found out what that noise was. We have a loads of bookshelves, that take up three walls of the living room (the mini-llibrary we call it). Apparently, a book jumped off the shelf in the middle of the night, knocked a picture off the shelf on its way down, and a bottle of sand from Cuba. The sand is all over the floor, the book not only jumps off the shelf, but throws itself to the other side of the room, and the picture falls onto the floor.

A couple of nights later, I hear another crash...this time, I let it go, but still put my chair behind my door just incase.

Flashbacks-A-Go-Go

I find it hard to believe that the last time I posted something was almost a month ago. I sincerely havent forgotten about any of you, but have just been so busy.....

As everyone in my life has heard so many times over the past 6 weeks....Between March 20, and May 20, I only had Easter Monday off....1 day off. 2 months.

So, as you can imagine, i've been ridiculously busy. However, With only 7 days of teaching placement left *which I can hardly believe becuase it feels like yesterday I was saying "Oh my god...I have 14 weeks of placement"*, Im just about finished, and life will start to get back to quasi normal.

I did manage a quick 4 day trip to Vancouver and Seattle but that's about it.

HOWEVER.....as busy as I am between placement and working, and as much as Ive had to do, my teaching placement gave way to something that I never thought I would see ever again....It gave me something that I only just thought about last week, and actually looked for on EBAY to buy....this placement has given me back a piece of my childhood.


This placement, gave me Mr. Mugs Workbooks. 3 of them. I honestly havent seen these workbooks since I was in grade 1. But I remembered them all the way until now. These were the books that taught me how to read and write. You wanna talk about Nostalgia?? THIS is the epitomy of nostalgia.

How many of you remember these books??

haha...jokes on you.

George Bush has a heart attack and dies.

Obviously, he goes to hell where the devil is waiting for him.

"I'm not sure what to do," says the devil.

"You're on my list but I have no room for you.

As you definitely have to stay here, so I'm going to have to
let some-one else go.

I've got three folks here who weren't quite as bad as you.

I'll let one of them go, but you have to take their place.

I'll even let you decide who leaves."

George thought that sounded pretty good, so he agreed.

The devil opened the first room.

In it were Richard Nixon and a large pool of hot water.

He kept diving in and climbing out, over and over.

Such was his fate in hell.

"No!" George said.

"I don't think so. I'm not a good swimmer and don't think I
could stay in hot water all day."

The devil led him to the next room.

In it was Tony Blair with a sledge hammer and a room full of
rocks.

All he did was swing the hammer, time after time.

"No!" I've got this problem with my shoulder. I would be in
constant agony if all I could do was break rocks all day" commented George.

The devil opened a third door.

In it, George saw Bill Clinton lying on the floor with his arms
staked over his head and his legs staked in a spread-eagle pose.

Bent over him was Monica Lewinsky, doing what she does best.

George Bush looked at this in disbelief for a while and finally said,

"Yeah, I can handle this."

The devil smiled and said,

"Ok, Monica, you're free to go!"

AHHHH Crap......

My poor puppy....R.I.P. Abby..

April 5, 1993 - March 30, 2007

11:24pm

What do you do, when someone youve known your entire life, turns out to be someone completely different then who you thought they were?

I have said, a million times, that as much as you know someone, you never REALLY know everything about them. I live by it...i swear by it. And it has constantly been the right advice to myself.

Turns out, someone I know, VERY we...let me rephrase, someone I THOUGHT i knew well, has been a coke addict for the past 2 years....he's broke up with his fiance, and moved in with his parents.

Now, the social service worker in me, says "Okay PP, you've done this a million times. Coke, no problem. Lets look at our options, and resources available." And once the persons been councelled, and spoken to...and supported *not to keep doing coke, but a supportive friendly ear*, they move on their way, and you can take them by the hand, but you can only lead them so far.....

However, this time, its someone that I know, and totally love and care about. Im having trouble processing that concept in my brain. XXX is a coke addict.....I can say the words, but Its not registering. How is this possible??? I ve seen this person at least 100 times in the past 2 years. How did I not SEE it....I do realize that I am not perfect, and that I didnt see it, becuase it wasnt something that I was looking for. I never would have thought to look for it.

Now, again, the SS worker in me pipes up and says "PP...at least he's come forward about it. Hes said something, which is always the hardest step. He could have not said anything, and found himself in jail eventually...cause thats where he would have wound up. But he's talking about it, which is a positive step towards recovery...It will still be a LONG road, but at least hes facing the right direction."

And then, i think about who it is, and I feel completely helpless....and lost...and think that no matter how good I am at my job, Ive always been able to detach. I cant detach from this person. Im stuck with them....and in that realization, my entire sense of what is real, has come crashing down around me.....and im staring at the peices thinking "What the fuck do we do now??"

Holy shit...i can breathe

I survived my first placement....barely. And just in time too....I'm feeling very out of touch with everyone.

And now I get two weeks off...well, not off from working, but off from school.

It feels nice to not have anything to do, considering I was SO busy, but Saturday was the first time that I was able to go to work with no homework, or no lesson planning since September. I have to admit...i was a little bored. Aside from doing my job, and being crazy busy while I was there, in the moments when the crisis lines werent ringing, or people werent wanting things...i was bored. Those were the minutes that I filled up with marking, or making tests.

But I have a few things planned for my time off.

- I'm going to watch the last two weeks worth of episodes of the Amazing Race that I never had time to watch over the past 8 days.

- Im going to organize my life, and sort out all the shit that I didnt get to do for the past 7 weeks.

- I'm going to find a pair of shoes to wear to my friends wedding, and get my dress altered.

- Im going to finish up my last asignment for my administrater at the college about this past placement.

- i'm going to BC and Seattle....I CANT WAIT. I know I vacationed less than a year ago, but it feels like its been 5 years since we all went to Vegas. I'm going to visit my lovely and dear friend Howie who lives out there. He would like to take a roadie to Seattle, I said "Of course"...*first starbucks ever...mmmm*

I have already been to BC before, so I know what Im in store for, but ive never been to seattle...so any of you out there, who might have gone, or live there, let me know what's FANTASTIC and a total "cant miss" of the city. We're only there for the day.

I cant wait...I havent seen the ocean in a year and a half....its been way too long.

So close to the end.....

So Im just about 6 school days from the end of my placement, and trust me...it cant come soon enough.

I find that im a lot grouchier doing this placement....im not getting along with the teacher all that well, as she is a control freak, and has a tough time letting go of having to dominate every aspect of the classroom. She offers no direction, and very little suggestion. Which doesnt help if I have no clue what im doing. And when I find that i ask her for a suggestion, she only says "good luck with that"....

She is also very sarcastic, which I can appreciate....except she's mean about being sarcastic. So, besides all of that, and only having 6 days of that classroom left, Im very excited about moving on.

I have had a lot of time to think about whether or not I would want to teach after this....but a few things have come up.

Im not a fan of having such a fixed schedule....its a little odd, becuase im not used to it. And having summers off is starting to look less appealing....I like being able to take time off when ever I want to. Im missing a lot of fun things that my friends are doing, that I would rather do....However, I know that I have to get through all of this so that I can travel.....I just need a break.....im too grouchy lately.

War on Bullshit....

Its been a while since I posted any type of political comments, but I personally have to reiterate how sick of George W I really am.

War in Iraq...

War against drugs....

War against terror....

All things we have heard, and have becoming common language in the last few years....but seriously, even though the last two are good, why does everything have to be the "WAR"....Whats Dubya's deal anyway??

I WISH i could vote this coming election....I'm so sick of republicans.

Brats...all of them.

I've been staring at this blank screen for the past couple of days, trying to think of something worth saying...something like I used to say...something that made people check my comment section before they checked their own email.

Do I mention the growing infatuation that is developing between someone, and someone else who is married....Not today...but one day.

Do I mention that I hooked up with a guy from my past who is BAD news.....mmm...getting better, but not yet. Beucase we might never seen one another again. Its too soon to bitch about it.

....and its funny, but the only thing that I can even think of bitching about....is the kids at school

I fucking hate them...infact, its gotten so bad that I feel personal vengeful feelings towards them. I've tried being nice.....really. Shocking, I know.

I've tried being lenient....ive even tried being accomodating. I've been tough..but fair....until today.

I had my first evaluation on Friday....one of my profs from teachers college comes in to watch me in action. I did tell the kids about him before he got there, just to avoid all of the "who's he" questionning.

My children, were angels Friday morning. They worked hard, and quietly. There were 22 of them in class on Friday....As soon as recess was over, all hell broke loose.

The kids were up and down out of their seats...walking around, talking and laughing with their friends across the rooms. There was coloring, while I was doing the lesson, there was reading of novels...there was Nintendo DS games being played....It was a nightmare.

I walked my prof out to the parking lot, and when I got back down to my room, I closed the door, and FREAKED out on them.

Today....i pulled all 11 students into the hallway, who decided to act up during my evaluation. I promised them, that if they EVER acted like that around me again, the consequence would be severe...and it would be HORRIBLE. Thing is, I was smiling when I said it.....4 of them cried.

I had 4 students in for detention during phys ed. I spoke to all fo them earlier in the day. Obviosuly nothing I said registered with them. I said that I was sick *I ALMOST swore at them...almost...*I was sick of their behavior, and starting TODAY, in school suspensions will take place. *thats when you call their parents, and have them go home, and they are suspended for the day only*...I said I wasnt joking anymore.....

I was ridiculously serious....and must have looked so. 2 of them cried.

Put the fear of god into my students today....Check.
Give out 4 detentions today...Check.
Make 6 students cry today....Check.

A night of nights

Have you ever had one of those "a-ha" moments...And NO...not the band, or the crazy video drawn in comics...*for those of you who would comment on the band instead of the point..there are a few of you I can think of off the top of my head*

But a moment, when everything becomes so clear, and you know what you what you want to do, or how you want to change your life in the next little while?

I had one of those last night. I was at the bar, having a great time, just hanging out with my friend Karolina....and it hit me. I want something different, something better for myself....and it had nothing to do with the company I was in, or the place I was in....but something inside.

An renewed sense of self improvement so to speak....something that lays dormant inside of you, until you go somewhere, or see something that reawakens a drive inside of you, long since forgotten.

Its funny how feelings like that get pushed aside so easily....becuase with a renewed sense of improvement, comes a rejuvinated sense of empowerment, and confidence to get things done, and change what you want to change.

I forgot how good that feels.

...all work and no play...is really a lot of work...

After a rough weekend of suicides, and working 17 hour shifts...a week of teaching, and workshops, marking, and planning...i'm finally taking a night off. Of course, after all my work is finished.

I have been SO busy, that I havent had a chance to see anyone, or do anything since the end of January. Grantid, its only been about 2 weeks since ive seen anyone, but it feels like 6 eternitys.

Ive got someone coming over tomorrow night, and we're going to go over my lesson plans, and then head out for a night out at Dragonfly....go out for a bite to eat, and just hang out....relaxing..and drinking of course. I work the rest of the weekend, so a night to recharge myself is going to be exactly what I need.

On the other hand, I have started planning my trip to B.C. this coming March. My friend asked me if I wanted to go to Seattle, and since I have never been, but love Starbucks, I figure i'd go see where it all began.

I know Yrautca is from Seattle....Whats there to do there...Do tell.

Ugly news at night....

Its Midnight almost......

I was just woken up about an hour ago by a phone call saying that one of my friends commit suicide. I used to work with this person in Massachusetts, and still saw him when he came through this way. I hadnt seen him in about 4 months, but talked to him almost 4 times a week on messenger, or email.

The kicker? This was an older man that I worked with, maybe about my parents age...not older, but older than me. I knew, and worked with him and his wife, for a while, and kept in constant contact with them.....When Donnie commit suicide earlier this week, his son was so broken hearted, that he jumped out of the top window in his house, and commit suicide as well. I didnt know his son, but I cant even imagine what Lynn *wife and mom* is going through right now.....

I have indeed written about him before.

My music is making me gay??

Im sure most of you have heard of this idiot Donnie Davies who wrote the song "God Hates Fags" *SHUDDER!!!*...and after shaking off the "appaul" of the very title...I have no joy in telling you that that's not the end of the post.

There has allso been a list compiled of Bands to watch out for (cause you know, apparently they might make you gay...*and major eyeroll*) I'll also list which bands I like/listen to...cause there are quite a few of them.. :o)

Bands to watch out for

• The Spores (endorse suicide)
• Scissor Sisters - SO FUN!!!
  
• Rufus Wainwright
• Merzbau
• Ravi Shankar
• Wilco
• Bjork - Who doesnt like Bjork??? I LOVE her
  
• Tech N9ne
• Ghostface Killah
• Bobby Conn
• Morton Subotnik
• Cole Porter
• The String Cheese Incident
• Eagles of Death Metal
• Polyphonic Spree
• The Faint
• Interpol
• Tegan and Sara
• Erasure - I used to listen to them a long time ago, but I highly doubt they had any influence on my sexuatlity
  
• The Grateful Dead (AIDS) - I never listened to the religiously, but a couple songs were okay
• Le Tigre
• Marilyn Manson (dark gay) - HUGE fan...one of the most brilliant people i've ever heard in an interview. His autobiography was amazing. I totally recommend it
• The Gossip
• The Magnetic Fields
• The Doors - Again, not a huge fan, but there's a couple of songs.
  
• Phish
• Queen - LOVE Queen
  
• The Strokes - LOVE the Strokes
  
• Sufjan Stevens
• Morrissey(?questionable?) - LOVE Morrissey, but I figured hed be on this list
  
• The Pet Shop Boys - Come ON!! Who doesnt love West End Girls??
  
• Metallica - Again..a fan
• Judas Priest
• The Village People - Not a fan, but always a fun club tune
  
• The Secret Handshake
• The Rolling Stones - How do the Rolling Stones make you gay?? UGH.
  
• David Bowie - One of my top 10 of all time!! AND he's married...to a Woman!!
  
• Frankie Goes to Hollywood - LOVE them
  
• Man or Astroman
• Richard Cheese
• Jay-Z - LOVE Jay-Z....like so much it hurts.
  
• Depeche Mode - LOVE Depeche Mode. Deeply
  
• Kansas - I grew up listening to them..my dad likes them
  
• Ani DiFranco
• Fischerspooner
• John Mayer
• George Michael (texan) - As if being from Texas makes you an influence on someone's sexuality..if that we true...think of the rumors we could spread about George W.
• Angel Eyes
• The Indigo Girls
• Velvet Underground - Love the VU.
  
• Madonna - EVERYONE loves her...even if you hate her...
  
• Elton John - So what if he's gay...he's amazing...hold me closer tiny dancer....Awww...love it
  
• Barry Manilow
  
• Indigo Girls - They're on here twice!! Double Watch out?? Is that what that means??
  
• Melissa Etheridge - My mom likes her...she's still straight....
  
• Eminmen
• Nirvana - Nirvana?? Really...I adore them
  
• Boy George* - Good times
  
• The Killers - NO COMMENT. I LOVE this band
  
• Lou Reed
• Lil' Wayne
• Motorhead
• Jill Sobule
• Wilson Phillips
• DMX - I think DMX is a manly man....
  
• Lisa Loeb - She's so talented
  
• Ted Nugent (loincloth) - Not a fan....but for someone who loves god so much, has failed to remember that Jesus ALSO spent much of his time in a loincloth!!!
• Dogstar
• Thirty Seconds to Mars - A fan
  
• Lil' Kim - A fan
  
• kd lang - Again..my mom likes her, and is still straight.
  
• Frank Sinatra - OH PLEASE!!! A CLASSIC!!
  
• Hinder
• Nickleback
• Justus Kohncke
• Bob Mould
• Clay Aiken
• Arcade Fire
• Bright Eyes
• Corinne Bailey Rae
• Audioslave - LOVE them
  
• Red Hot Chili Peppers - LOVE their old stuff...
  
• Panic at the Disco
• Elton John(really gay) - Guess he just wanted to stress how gay he thought elton was.

If liking these bands makes me gay, in any way shape or form, then so be it....i'll be gay for a bit. I was getting ready to give up on guys anyway. LOL!

Drama King, Itchy Heads, or Church of Satan

Im torn about what to write about....Do I continue with my week of teaching experiences, and NOT getting head lice (for those of you who were concerned...no one was more relieved than I)...

Do I write about about my friend who is the king of all that is dramatic...for those of you who think that I am dramatic....ive got nothing on this guy...LD was ready to kill him last night while he was aksing for advice on my msn. (He didnt call or text her today by the way LD!!! Progress)

Or do I write about this guy, and the recent updates.....Yes. Thats the one. Lets discuss him.

So...we are all aware that I was looking for him for like 6 weeks, and talked to someone we know mutually asking to pass along the message that I was looking for "guy 1"...

Well, guy 1, after a year, calls me on his own. He had no idea that I had spoken to guy 2, or that I was looking for him. This was a FANTASTIC surprise....how insynch we are to be thinking of one another at the same time like that....

So we talk, and catch up...for like 4 hours. Things have changed about him, things have changed about me....the feelings, and the connection are obviously still there...Well some sort of feeling...we havent discussed the possibility of anything as of yet. We're still just "friends" at this point.

We fall comfortably into familiar patterns with one another, which feels so amazing, and safe and nice. But the entire time, in the back of my mind, i cant help but think of the way he used to be...This will take time to relearn who he is...i am aware of that.

But after talking for one day, and then randomly through out the next 5 days, we dont have much of a chance to get reacquainted....Things start to happen...they make me sad, and scared. Emotionally, I know how hurting this guy can be. We havent spoken in a year...and all of a sudden he's back, and its feeling comfortable...TOO comfortable.

There is one peice of information that he passed on though, that I found to be quite interesting. Hes considering joining the "Church of Satan". This is new news. The church,....of Satan. He has been influenced this past year by the band Alkaline Trio....

So last night...me and LD decide to look up this band and listen to what they have to say. We ALSO decide to read up on the Church of Satan. Cant say they dont have a sense of humor, thats for sure...

Check it out. Opinions please...what does everyone think of this....

Yay for teaching....

Day One: Observation, and getting to know the kids/staff/teachers clasroom management techniques. Im finding out what im expected to do, and she already wants me planning my first lesson for day two...fun times. Keeping me busy...and out of trouble.

Day Two: Head lice. NASTY MOTHER FUCKERS.

Blogger Confessional© Stupid things we do as children

As a child, I loved this show, and of course am jacked about the movie, that is now not being released until almost 2009.

When I was a kid, every house that I ever went to, I always checked the basement for Fraggle Holes. If I have been to your house, I have looked. Trust me. I knew it was a show...but a part of me so wanted it to be real, that I always checked...just in case.

One time, I was at someone's house, and they had a small hole in one of the walls...i was so excited, and asked them about it, not implying it might have been a fraggle hole, because that would have been ridiculous...but they proceeded to inform me that it was a crack in the foundation, and that they dug out all the loose concrete.

I was devastated.

Feet Magicians and Binge Drinking.

Well..I made it.

I wasnt sure there for a day or two if I was going to get through, but we did. That's 2 more A's to add to my transcript.

I'll spare you all of the horrendously boring things we talked about in class, becuase to be perfeclyt honest, I only remember...actually, I remember quite a bit. Did you know that if a child doesnt learn to read in grade one, they only have a One in Eight chance of ever catching up to grade level after grade one, without extra measures? Ya...we did a lot of work. But i'm glad its over.

Now, on the last two nights of school, I decided to stay at the hotel with a group of 6 people in my class. Now, we had to get up for school at 7, but since we were going out that night,a nd werent planning on being home until late, there was no way that I was going to sleep...id never get up.

So, we decide to go to this bar, that has (get this) Line dancing on thursday nights....I put my foot dodwn about line dancing, and blah blah blah, they made me go anyway. I was expecting the bar to be horrendous, but when we got there, it was insane!!!

There were at least 600 people there, and ya, it was country, but you couldnt even hear the music, because you were too busy focusing on what other people were doing. We had a fantastic time. Those people who were there were so hard core about line dancing, if you didnt know what you were doing, you got danced into a wall, and were safer off the floor. After being out there for less than 5 minutes, I decided that I was better off watching (which was still fun), and when this guy asked me why I wasnt out there dancing, I said that they reminded me of Feet Magicians. I couldnt figure out what they were doing, and im better off just watching. If you learn how they do it, it takes all the intrigue and mystery out of it.

So that was that. We stayed at the bar until about 3, got home, drank some more, and I watched barnyard while everyone else slept. I think I got about half hour of sleep. Infact, i went to bed wednesday morning at 2:30 am, and only slept 4 and a half hours until I went to bed saturday morning at 1:30am. Those last few days were insane, and filled with drinking.

I only have to work 5 days this week, until my placement starts on the 22nd....

A quickie

...Ya....that just about sums it up.

Im here...im here.

Talk about crazy busy weeks.

I cant believe the last time I blogged was december 27th!!!

but you know how christmas goes....

and now here I am...4 days into the year, and ive been at school since the 2nd.

We go everyday. Up at 6:30, out the door by 7:10. To school for 8....in class until 4:30.

and then not to mention that this course is only 5 days (we finish saturday...ewww)....and I have 5 huge assignments. One of which I should be finishing right now, but stopped just to say hi....To you. My lovely faithfuls.

Starting monday, I have another week long course, but we finish friday, instead of saturday. I took two weeks off work...i have no social life....I called Miss Ash, and LD, to see what they were doing satuday night. Its my only night that I can stay out past 11, before turning into a pumpkin. Sunday is the only day that I can sleep past 6:30...and I want a night off.

after working my ass off these past 5 days, and then having to start all over again monday...I think I deserve one night to drink.....and drink I shall. :o)

So if you dont hear from me again until the 12th, dont take it personally, dont be sad....no one else will hear from me until then either.